jus came back frm work. showered, nth to do now.

im really tired but i jus dun feel like slping. tho slping would be the best alternative for me to while time away, now that i've done with work. i need to get occupied. i hate what is going on now but there isn't any right for me to change anything. i have no rights i have no say. i am wyemin.

ah dun even noe if im even supposed to feel played. ive been kept from so much. i dun have the right to know but i jus feel maybe... ah nvm. its not even fair to u anw. the way im putting things it seems that im the victim but nah. its not meant tis way. im nonsense. lol.

yay jesus' birthday is jus tmr. maybe aft den i shall know what to do. aft den he wll have plans for me and i will truly uds wad life actually is. i don't want tis to happen but if its god's will. why not?

and i really enjoyed today. i woke up really late tho i spent most of my time dreaming abt stuff tt will nv come true. at least imo. looking at things now, yea. oh well. den i didn have time for anything else so i jus went to work. and i was kept busy till supper, den back home. and now im not occupied anymre so. argh it jus flows back in. sian.

i jus realised most of the staff in m1 are bad ppl. bad not as in criminal-like people. but rather let me put it in this way. very-very-hip-people? they go MoS late at nite and party till 6. den they report for work at 1030 the nxt day. 90% of the ppl here smokes as well. and ALL of them scold vulgarities. LOL. damn damn funny la. we'll jus gossip abt any customer we serve. common topic :D ranging from customers with weird names like "Ice hanjokok" to bloody grumpy customers where we'll jus scold all we want in the store. MASS SCOLDING! its damn cool la. what i get to see and experience behind the scenes. now i really know what working life is. i love working life and i dun mind going into it asap. its cool and i really learnt a lot. esp these bunch of ppl even tho they're considered bad influence but self-restraint is enough. i will NEVER smoke. and i dun use that cheem vulgarities like them. i dun even noe what slang they use. but hearing them scold is comical enough. supper time is the bestest la. they will jus share their experience on the most significantly "different" customers. so damn interesting :D

yada-yada. whatever. sian la im jus really down now. i dun even noe what i should do and whether what im doing nw is the correct way out. dun tink wad i do even makes a diff. its not as if im some big shot. im wyemin. i dun even mean anything so. oh well.

i should jus haha off now. typing all these has no meaning too anw.

bye