Can you kick it

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

perhaps i should start on a hiatus soon.

ah okay take away that perhaps please.
i wna get things going fast.

i think i'm having a very negative mindset now.
since when studies in year 1 isn't important. plus all the talk about "you shouldn't study during the first 2 terms" and "wah all the muggers spoiling vj's image".
dang. and ironically, won't we spoil vj's image even more if we don't study?

fine, weekends only now.

wanted to reply tags ytd but decided not to as i'd really sound damn diff if i did.
ah screw it la.
i'm really thankful fr all the tags anw, just don't know how to reciprocate.

interhse soccer today. haha just as expected. quite screwed coz many ppl couldn't turn up. soccer floorball training and all. but i wna thank 06s48, 06s53, 07s53 for coming! really grateful for these ppl who're willing to take time off to participate.

ah why am i such a failure.
why can't i do the same.
this sucks i suck.

had to form a team with some other ppl in the end.
mao kenneth(i think) zhangyang daniel kinchi MR CHOW SF

haha we were that desperate tt we asked mr chow to play for our team.
lol we lost 2 matches and drew one bt i think it was one of the more enjoyable matches i've played. no pressure. haha.

looking forward to interhse man. (:

ah i must go now.
bye

I swore I'm up to no good on 10:28 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007

a timely reality check indeed.
the thing now is to take this wakeup call seriously.

i saw the tag.
mum:"so what if u become successful in one aspect. once u fail another aspect of ur life, u are still a failure"

i'm very sure it can't be my mum coz i'm very very sure she doesn't know my blog and very very very sure she doesn't know how to tag.
i'm not gna find out who it was either.

but i guess it kind of emphasised that point really.
and today she sort of reiterated the point again. it always revolves around this issue and i'm starting to see it beoming more and more true. but the thing is i can't possibly stop whatever i'm doing right now. ah i just hope that everything will just equal out, but is that possible?

Do your best, let God do the rest.

time to work towards that motto now.

sigh. i'm really sorry for being so emo during the later part of the day just now.
it's just that i've nv felt so shitty bef. not used to it.

but i'll get over it.
but i've overcome this.
but i'll conquer my weaknesses.

big talk, big talk only wyemin.
like what i said to sheena, i really hope all this motivation thing won't be shortlived. what for talking all this bullshit nw and start playing like free again the nxt wk.

HEY PROMOS ARE IN FREAKING TEN WEEKS!

solution: display midyrs on my table.
should be a fool-proof solution eh.

ah ok enough of emo shit.
had odac phototaking today. was quite bad. we took really long and wasted yijek's quite a bit of time. but he's really some nonsense guy. kept saying the same stuff over and over again. haha spastic man.

then chionged for lib quiz. lol it was really successful. but i think credit goes to the planning, how they made it so competitive and interesting and all. but i think if the ppl who joined weren't that enthu it wouldn't have turned out that way too. mad rushings here and there. can't believe i actually got so high during the quiz. sigh.

used to comment that's how ppl destress and how "scary" it was to know that someone is actually faking a high.
guess it has unknowingly become my way of destressing. wah sucks. i'm turning scary.

then went to vs to help kaili cut sponge leaves. it was real real bad. why can't i just force myself to unemo that time. argh. make it seem as if i'm some big shot walao. and the reason why i was reluctant to go at first really conspicuous.
eh wth, what's happening la.

so many things left unsettled.
so hopeless.

ah i'll just end it off here.

Do your best, let God do the rest.

I swore I'm up to no good on 10:18 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

had another almost perfect day today.

woke up real early in the mrng for odac meeting. ppl from a pe department in some pri sch came and shared their experiences on Sikkim. walao the pictures they took. i really wanto go! sian i just don't really look forward to the CIP part, unless it's interacting with the ppl there. heh.

and the thing is i asked my parents and they say ok! wah bestest la. really hope there'll be ppl going man. seriously won't be fun anymore with ppl not being able to make it.

went for spring cleaning after it ended at abt 10.10. settled stuff regarding invest, farewell, reunion and Sikkim. ah hope everything turns out smoothly man. spring cleaning turned out quite fun. haha. realised lynx only had very few stuff, compared to aquila. lol! settled store quite quickly, then went to den to help out a bit. carried boxes down and finished soon after. nice. haha. meeting's postponed to wednesday too.

slacked till abt 3 in the canteen talking cock and everything. hanged out with cheerleading ppl. haha. went to vs aft that. anticipated something much better than the turnout just now. the disgustingly long walk to vs in the sun was definitely not worth it. but again, the company saved the day again. and we did the vending machine thing! haha tedrid the vending machine hacker. lol.

ah, another example of a simple yet very much enjoyable day.

I WANTTTTTTTT.
argh

please tell me it's gna be okay
if only ah, if only.

I swore I'm up to no good on 7:50 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007

it's the end of midyrs!!

okay that was thursday, 3 days ago. -.-
that just goes to show that i really have no time!
gone are the times when i can just stay up late late into the night and hack down on my keyboard killing stupid monsters in games.

i can't do it anymore.

this isn't supposed to make me sound like some pathetic old fogey or something. but really, odac and hsecomm is pushing me to the limits.

and i thought the period bef June OT was one hell of a hectic period. but i'm very sure what's coming up would be one hell of one hell of a time. now got 2(one hell of), means worse la.

anw for the nxt 20 weeks, u'll see me becoming some mad dog. sometimes i wonder why i chose this kind of life. and what my mum always say sometimes hit me hard.

"so what if u become successful in one aspect. once u fail another aspect of ur life, u are still a failure"

i used to argue my way through, but now i realise, it's really damn stupid of me. what she said can never be more true.

i really miss the dunman-ish VJ life i had the start of the year. i know now's a little too late to say all of these but i just have to let it out man. how life used to be so carefree last time. i had practically no stress that time. and now, it's all diff. haha.

i recall 2 days ago on friday when we went back to dhs for a exSAP v DHP match. i wasn't looking forward to the match actually, but more of the company and just plain old crapping with the same few. it's just so easy to talk. blurt out any random topic and u get at least 3 minutes of non-stop blabbering of that. and mind you, 3 minutes is in fact a lot. and considering the fact that we are not not random people, heh.

the match wasn't as good as i expected. firstly because i was called quite last min so i didn't really know much about what's happening like i used to. so i just went there, joined in and whack. haha. ah also because of the damn imba pitch la, lumps of rocks here and die. HOW TO KICK?!

haha in the end we drew 3-3 with them, including a super comical last 20 minutes, or rather 2nd half. cramps every 30 seconds. lol. some ugly parts too, shan't elaborate.

in the end we just stopped the match coz of the rain. but after that 14 of us went to laupasat for dinner. it was bliss. haha. the food wasn't the best i've tasted but the thing was we didn't mind spending our time there with the company of one another. left the place at arnd 11. we actually took photos there too. haha. ah if only everyday in life would be like that.

but now i can't. midyears hasn't been very smooth sailing. in fact, it's the most unprepared exams i've ever taken. all my life i've never gone into the exam hall with nothing to remember. ha i don't know what's happening now man. and the thing is i don't even feel the urge to do my tutorials or start piaing now, even after knowing that i may very well fail my midyears.
i do care, but i just don't have the motivation to study.

shall see, when the red marks come flying all over my face.

and now there's year end OT to ponder about too. 18 days. i'm very sure there's gna be lots of controversies over this 18 day thing. it's already so hard to get ppl to go for a 8 trip, and now it's increased to a whopping 18 day trip, climbing a 5+km mountain on top of that.

i've already got consent from my parents but it certainly won't be as fun going there with only half the odac batch present. hah.

for now, all i can hope for is less outings! so i won't miss out on much. haha! such evil thinking. lol. ah, just have to brace myself for the upcoming events.

i'm gna be a windsurfer and take down all you waves man. go die.

I swore I'm up to no good on 10:53 PM