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Thursday, April 26, 2007

i realise i've been lying to myself all along, living under self deceit for so long.
it ain't the same anymore.
i've tried to change, but obviously it isn't enough. that, i've failed terribly.
it's been affecting me far too much. i know i have to let it go now and leave it all to God. what for try so hard, force something and failing ultimately.
it's been too obvious, looking out of place everytime, not being able to concentrate most of the time and practically just eating me slowly but steadily.

it's a really hard decision.
but everything i've seen. gah.
i don't know if what i'm hearing, what i'm seeing is true anymore.
i don't want to think about anything else, but everythign just doesn't go into place. it doesn't seem right.
i don't know what's happening anymore.

show me please. tell what what you want.


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