I swore I'm up to no good on 7:50 PM

it's the end of midyrs!!



okay that was thursday, 3 days ago. -.-
that just goes to show that i really have no time!
gone are the times when i can just stay up late late into the night and hack down on my keyboard killing stupid monsters in games.

i can't do it anymore.

this isn't supposed to make me sound like some pathetic old fogey or something. but really, odac and hsecomm is pushing me to the limits.

and i thought the period bef June OT was one hell of a hectic period. but i'm very sure what's coming up would be one hell of one hell of a time. now got 2(one hell of), means worse la.

anw for the nxt 20 weeks, u'll see me becoming some mad dog. sometimes i wonder why i chose this kind of life. and what my mum always say sometimes hit me hard.

"so what if u become successful in one aspect. once u fail another aspect of ur life, u are still a failure"

i used to argue my way through, but now i realise, it's really damn stupid of me. what she said can never be more true.



i really miss the dunman-ish VJ life i had the start of the year. i know now's a little too late to say all of these but i just have to let it out man. how life used to be so carefree last time. i had practically no stress that time. and now, it's all diff. haha.

i recall 2 days ago on friday when we went back to dhs for a exSAP v DHP match. i wasn't looking forward to the match actually, but more of the company and just plain old crapping with the same few. it's just so easy to talk. blurt out any random topic and u get at least 3 minutes of non-stop blabbering of that. and mind you, 3 minutes is in fact a lot. and considering the fact that we are not not random people, heh.

the match wasn't as good as i expected. firstly because i was called quite last min so i didn't really know much about what's happening like i used to. so i just went there, joined in and whack. haha. ah also because of the damn imba pitch la, lumps of rocks here and die. HOW TO KICK?!

haha in the end we drew 3-3 with them, including a super comical last 20 minutes, or rather 2nd half. cramps every 30 seconds. lol. some ugly parts too, shan't elaborate.

in the end we just stopped the match coz of the rain. but after that 14 of us went to laupasat for dinner. it was bliss. haha. the food wasn't the best i've tasted but the thing was we didn't mind spending our time there with the company of one another. left the place at arnd 11. we actually took photos there too. haha. ah if only everyday in life would be like that.

but now i can't. midyears hasn't been very smooth sailing. in fact, it's the most unprepared exams i've ever taken. all my life i've never gone into the exam hall with nothing to remember. ha i don't know what's happening now man. and the thing is i don't even feel the urge to do my tutorials or start piaing now, even after knowing that i may very well fail my midyears.
i do care, but i just don't have the motivation to study.

shall see, when the red marks come flying all over my face.

and now there's year end OT to ponder about too. 18 days. i'm very sure there's gna be lots of controversies over this 18 day thing. it's already so hard to get ppl to go for a 8 trip, and now it's increased to a whopping 18 day trip, climbing a 5+km mountain on top of that.

i've already got consent from my parents but it certainly won't be as fun going there with only half the odac batch present. hah.

for now, all i can hope for is less outings! so i won't miss out on much. haha! such evil thinking. lol. ah, just have to brace myself for the upcoming events.

i'm gna be a windsurfer and take down all you waves man. go die.