a timely reality check indeed.
the thing now is to take this wakeup call seriously.

i saw the tag.
mum:"so what if u become successful in one aspect. once u fail another aspect of ur life, u are still a failure"

i'm very sure it can't be my mum coz i'm very very sure she doesn't know my blog and very very very sure she doesn't know how to tag.
i'm not gna find out who it was either.

but i guess it kind of emphasised that point really.
and today she sort of reiterated the point again. it always revolves around this issue and i'm starting to see it beoming more and more true. but the thing is i can't possibly stop whatever i'm doing right now. ah i just hope that everything will just equal out, but is that possible?

Do your best, let God do the rest.

time to work towards that motto now.

sigh. i'm really sorry for being so emo during the later part of the day just now.
it's just that i've nv felt so shitty bef. not used to it.

but i'll get over it.
but i've overcome this.
but i'll conquer my weaknesses.

big talk, big talk only wyemin.
like what i said to sheena, i really hope all this motivation thing won't be shortlived. what for talking all this bullshit nw and start playing like free again the nxt wk.

HEY PROMOS ARE IN FREAKING TEN WEEKS!

solution: display midyrs on my table.
should be a fool-proof solution eh.

ah ok enough of emo shit.
had odac phototaking today. was quite bad. we took really long and wasted yijek's quite a bit of time. but he's really some nonsense guy. kept saying the same stuff over and over again. haha spastic man.

then chionged for lib quiz. lol it was really successful. but i think credit goes to the planning, how they made it so competitive and interesting and all. but i think if the ppl who joined weren't that enthu it wouldn't have turned out that way too. mad rushings here and there. can't believe i actually got so high during the quiz. sigh.

used to comment that's how ppl destress and how "scary" it was to know that someone is actually faking a high.
guess it has unknowingly become my way of destressing. wah sucks. i'm turning scary.

then went to vs to help kaili cut sponge leaves. it was real real bad. why can't i just force myself to unemo that time. argh. make it seem as if i'm some big shot walao. and the reason why i was reluctant to go at first really conspicuous.
eh wth, what's happening la.

so many things left unsettled.
so hopeless.

ah i'll just end it off here.

Do your best, let God do the rest.