for weeks i've prayed for me to be closer to God.
the personal note on my phone didn't really help.
short prayers everytime i see that note didn't help.
saying grace bef meals didn't help either.

i won't deny thinking that religion is no more than a fallacy.
one where people devote themselves to merely something that would help them past their time.
i tried to change that mentality but the fact that nothing changed much just worsens things.

so yes, it's true that only during times of despair that you'll truly Feel Him.
it was the first time for dno how long i just broke down during peace giving. sounds like matt. ag. and i didn't feel ashamed at all, weirdly.
at least i did what i wanted to do, or rather what He wanted me to do.

answers, answers.

so apart from seemingly meaningless stuff on top,
PROMOS ARE OVER!

somehow overrated i must say.
the only point when i reached the point of being euphoric was probably only the first 2 minutes after we were dismissed. me, wayne and yk screamed. it felt quite good. haha.
actually i'd knew long ago this would happen, that i wouldn't feel much of a difference after promos, so much to the extent that some part of me still rather it be pre-promos period.
1 more wk from now, it'll still be depressing results. what for the 1 wk?

had class outing after celebrating jocelyn's birthday.
turned out quite as expected but it was still good to have such outings.
good start maybe? at least i got to know a few better.

farewell preparations ytd. hrm. no comments.

went to LS's hse today! haha had fun playing with arkar. okay playing the xbox.
"number of student's ordered:" LOL. i want to order students also sia. free labour.

welcome to post promos! where it'll be a diferent life you'll be having.
but at least i have brother (: