today i realized how important a lasting impression is.

you can have the best happenings in the day, but i guess in the end, it's the closure that will ultimately determine how you think the day has been like. been having quite a few days like this alrd, but i think today's quite an apt example to give.

the whole day would probably be one of the best i had. kind of enjoyed lessons even, i don't know why. then when lessons ended at 1210, was already looking forward to the rest of the day. ate with class, went to the room. had a bit of cheap thrill coming up with some aliteration thingy and getting high over it. LOL. chilled abit in the room for awhle, it was one of the better after-lessons-afternoons alrd. (: then did up a bit of the vgems thing and went for the meeting. settled most of the stuff, yay. then went for the match against MI. was quite disappointed tedrid couldn't play(sick), but he took it easy so i guess it was okay. in the end match was postponed due to the rain, SAD. had one of the highest evenings after that. it was somewhat similar to last thursday's bouldering session. it was damn good. even taking down the scaffolding and keeping the parts in the store could be so enjoyable. the feeling was quite undescribable. very very blissful. we're really special. don't deny. the high carried on all the way to the room, and we did crazy stuff as usual. it alsted for quite awhle. then came the bad closure. hrm, don't know how to describe but it just didn't turn out well, quite a waste for such a day imo. but maybe it's only that i'm thinking too much into it, which could be true most of the time.

maybe the more correct approach would be just to acknowledge that unhappy moments are to be forgotten? i want to, but is that against human nature. hrm.

but still, today would be on the tops of the best days i've had. just wish days like this would not stop coming.

PW results out tmr. don't know if i'm feeling anything at all abt it, bt i don't think i am. just i'm numb to the 2 sickening letters alrd? hopefully, tmr will be a good day, for all (: NS checkup tmr too. leaving sch after PE, or rather after PW results. hrm. may everything go smoothly! still looking forward to captain's ball in school! yay : D

ah, if only wishes could come true that easy, there'll be no point making wishes. 11.11, are you working?

somehow feel this song's very apt to what's happening now.

Melee
Can't Hold On

Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said
'Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through

Someone dies late at night and I never know A
nd even if I did, so afraid of the face
I'd show I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last

I want to be free
I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
Oh, I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free

You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me

Oh, and if you can't hold on
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
I'll be there, I'll be there

Oh, and if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try I
'll be there so you know that you're not alone

by the way, this is a really good video.