23oh no, damn. i've got a feeling the dreaded feeling's coming back again. just when i thought i could be doing without it for some time, at least.

these few days have been rather, weird. stuff that made me very happy, stuff which made me ponder about it for awhile, then eventually have to brood over it. i don't like myself. i'm too easily affected by bad stuff. just one is enough.

thus, i have decided to let whatever it is be. used to think as long as there's a will, you can do whatever you want. and achieve it. but i guess it only applies to some cases. yup, i think i should just be normal, and expect nothing else. ahhah, don't know how to explain that. oh well.

oh yes, and great job to all who went for the pinoy dance! not sure if we won it, but i suppose we should? since the producers alrd said we got the best timing so far. hrm, not really proportional to effort spent i guess. the other schools really seemed to have prepared a lot for it, whereas we only started proper one week ago, and total time spent pratising would be say, less than 10 hours? hrm, maybe it's the people who joined huh. you guys are imba lah. thought today would be the last day to have anything to do with this stupid event alrd, but most likely it won't be the case. heard PIs wanted to go all the way though, so it should be a good thing i guess? yeh.

ahh, a really really weird post again.

HAHA. sigh.

but at least i know there is what i call trust.
everyone seems to be doing well, i shall not be the lag.